An unexpected feeling associated with going on "a break": embarrassment.

I didn't really experience this feeling to begin with but now I feel a little embarrassed. Do people doubt the worth of our relationship? Do people expect us to simply break up? That we are no good for each other? And what does it say about me? Am I not a good enough girlfriend? Am I too selfish? Do I expect too much? Is it my fault? Do I put up with too much? Should I have put my foot down? What do his parents think of me? Of us? What do my parents think of me? Of him? Of us? Do people assume it is my fault? Will it be awkward seeing his family after this? Will it be awkward seeing his friends after this? Will things improve?

The overriding feeling is of personal embarrassment. I'm just embarrassed that my relationship is not perfect. A perfect relationship seems only too easy to achieve yet can be so unattainable at times. Perhaps we should not place such great expectations on our partners so that we are not disappointed when things do not turn out like fairytales. Ugh, I don't know. Maybe I'm being paranoid. I miss my boyfriend.